Paying the Price...

The cost is high tonight....not much seems to be going right...my heart is so lonely for my boys..Ava, Mom and Dad. I feel that desire to give in to the hopelessness....to say "the heck with it" and go home. To an easier life. Lot's of Christian's get up, go to work, raise families, and die well. What compels me to do what I am doing? Is it God or is it me? I don't know the answer to that tonight. Right now I just miss my family. Wonder if that will ever be any easier? I know He's worth it...worth anything He has ever given me and more..He's worth it all. But that knowledge just doesn't take the pain away. Holy Spirit come...and do what you love to do...comfort me. In Jesus name, Amen.