A kiss from Abba

So tonight we were given a cabin up at Big Bear Mountain to spend the weekend in. We sat out under the stars in a hot tub watching shooting stars everywhere! About 6 within an hour! So relaxing and the sky is incredible up here. After the last two days of pain and depression, this is such a blessing. I listened to Corey Starks message from June 10th about intercession, and felt my faith being stirred up and a little joy returning. Thank you Lord for the gift.

Paying the Price...

The cost is high tonight....not much seems to be going right...my heart is so lonely for my boys..Ava, Mom and Dad. I feel that desire to give in to the hopelessness....to say "the heck with it" and go home. To an easier life. Lot's of Christian's get up, go to work, raise families, and die well. What compels me to do what I am doing? Is it God or is it me? I don't know the answer to that tonight. Right now I just miss my family. Wonder if that will ever be any easier? I know He's worth it...worth anything He has ever given me and more..He's worth it all. But that knowledge just doesn't take the pain away. Holy Spirit come...and do what you love to do...comfort me. In Jesus name, Amen.