This morning I am picturing myself on a milk carton with that caption. Where the heck did I go?
This isn't the 60's " I need to find myself" but a deep look at the fact that I lost myself. Totally, utterly lost myself. Maybe though.....maybe I never became myself in the first place! My friend and mentor
says, "stop trying to be who you already are."
So maybe it's just I have been trying to be what I imagined God, (and everybody else and their brother) wanted, rather than discovering and realizing who I am.
Does this all sound too philosophical? Look around. I believe our culture is in this same crisis.
What has informed us about ourselves? Scary question.
Christians, if you tell me to get my eyes on Jesus and off myself...who do you think led me here? And lean in close to your computer... I want to punch you!! HA! Just kidding.....I would throw a rock, which is way more biblical and correct. Har!
God alone can tell us who we are. And He does! If you can hear it.
He said "Good one!" when He planned you!!! Me too!!
Have you ever watched children when you tell them stories about when they were little? I've noticed they love it!! You tell them funny moments, or how special they are in some way and they just beam!
It makes them feel special and connected in a very real way. This is MY family.
That's how God is walking with me right now....and I want those stories of who He made me to be....reminding me how special I am to Him, even though I have brothers and sisters more innumerable than the stars....my siblings don't dilute His love one iota. Nor does it take away, my uniqueness somehow. Each carry a different facet of His DNA....and since He is infinite....well, the finite have a bit of trouble realizing how each individual could possibly be so special. But we are, Snowflake! We are!
Let's be found and informed by the One who loves us most....nothing can take that family away. And nothing can tell me I am less than what He says I am.
I have been sitting in this for a year now. It's taken that long for me to be able to even start to really articulate it. And I warn you....I'm not good at it yet. So if you want to stumble along, your welcome.
Just don't lurk. Reading and quietly closing the door. Talk to me. Together we go farther.
